From the bells of the church adjoining, I am daily remembered of my burial in the funerals of others
Et Properare Meum Clamant, e Turre Propinqua, Obstreperae Campanae Aliorum in Funere, Funus
by
WE have a convenient author, [5] who writ a discourse of
bells when he was prisoner in Turkey. How would he have enlarged himself if he
had been my fellow-prisoner in this sick bed, so near to that steeple which
never ceases, no more than the harmony of the spheres, but is more heard.
When
the Turks took Constantinople, they melted the bells into ordnance; I have
heard both bells and ordnance, but never been so much affected with those as
with these bells. I have lain near a steeple [6] in which
there are said to be more than thirty bells, and near another, where there is
one so big, as that the clapper is said to weigh more than six hundred
pounds, [7] yet never so affected as here.
Here the bells
can scarce solemnize the funeral of any person, but that I knew him, or knew
that he was my neighbour: we dwelt in houses near to one another before, but
now he is gone into that house into which I must follow him. There is a way of
correcting the children of great persons, that other children are corrected in
their behalf, and in their names, and this works upon them who indeed had more
deserved it. And when these bells tell me, that now one, and now another is
buried, must not I acknowledge that they have the correction due to me, and
paid the debt that I owe?
There is a story of a bell in a monastery [8] which, when any of the house was sick to death, rung
always voluntarily, and they knew the inevitableness of the danger by that. It
rung once when no man was sick, but the next day one of the house fell from the
steeple and died, and the bell held the reputation of a prophet still. If these
bells that warn to a funeral now, were appropriated to none, may not I, by the
hour of the funeral, supply?
How many men that stand at an execution, if they
would ask, For what dies that man? should hear their own faults condemned, and
see themselves executed by attorney? We scarce hear of any man preferred, but
we think of ourselves that we might very well have been that man; why might not
I have been that man that is carried to his grave now? Could I fit myself to
stand or sit in any man's place, and not to lie in any man's grave? I may lack
much of the good parts of the meanest, but I lack nothing of the mortality of
the weakest; they may have acquired better abilities than I, but I was born to
as many infirmities as they. To be an incumbent by lying down in a grave, to be
a doctor by teaching mortification by example, by dying, though I may have
seniors, others may be older than I, yet I have proceeded apace in a good
university, and gone a great way in a little time, by the furtherance of a
vehement fever, and whomsoever these bells bring to the ground to-day, if he
and I had been compared yesterday, perchance I should have been thought
likelier to come to this preferment then than he.
God hath kept the power of
death in his own hands, lest any man should bribe death. If man knew the gain
of death, the ease of death, he would solicit, he would provoke death to assist
him by any hand which he might use. But as when men see many of their own
professions preferred, it ministers a hope that that may light upon them; so
when these hourly bells tell me of so many funerals of men like me, it
presents, if not a desire that it may, yet a comfort whensoever mine shall
come.